Blinded I am and so are you by shedding tears
The confusion that separates us two we hold dear

Just look into my eyes and kiss our fears goodbye

I'm reaching for your shadow drowning in the kiss of dawn
Touching the pain that you left me with at the kiss of dawn

I'm tired of the games I'm playing with you when you're not here
'Death frees from the fear of dying', it's true, have no fear

Let me look into your eyes and see death pass us by



I need to get out of here
befre I end up like Nyasha.
I can already foresee myself slowly slipping down that road.

I'm in the wrong fucking faculty.
Honestly.
I'm just wiltering in here.
And the phrase "poor little rich boy/girl",
it's all just a stereotype myth.
Money can buy you happiness.

Check this video out. Its about MS13, the world's most dangerous gang. Very cool, very scary at the same time.

Sushi with xin and kahyin today! We purposely dressed in our girly clothes so as to show our little transition from boyish secondary school retards to well, girlier varsity idiots. Hahah. Xin even purposely painted her nails a barbie pink with glitter! It was really fun having our sushi buffet, grabbing the cream puffs off the conveyor belt and watching xin make a monstrous sauce concoction of wasabi and soya sauce. Ugh.





Then off to shop and take neoprints and photos!

Filming today was, rather interesting and boring all at the same time. Shopped after that with dear old mum and I bought a topman hoodie! The salesguy was really very nice, as the topshop value card was not allowed to be used in topman, so he went all the way up to topshop and helped me convert it to cash, then I used it to get the hoodie. I suppose its a very tedious process as it takes very long. I saw a guy ask another salesperson if he could use it and was turned down right away, so yah, he rocks bigtime! I checked his name in my receipt and specially mentioned him in the feedback form=).

Plain sunset at timbre was great! Well pretty, great. They only played one set and the last two songs sound pretty similar but overall, it was earcandy. Sat outside the cathay for awhile listening to my ipod with nehbear as usual before heading home. So tired so tired.

où?

Fuck. Am i a circus freakshow or something?

I fucking hate the world at this moment. Right now.
Please don't talk to me if you don't see what I am saying,
even after explicit explanation.
Stay away. I'll bite.

You Should Play the Harp

You are a sensitive soul, with a great admiration for beauty. You definitely have what it takes to make beautiful music, but most instruments are too harsh for you. You are subtle, shy, and even a bit spoiled. You're very picky about most aspects of your life. It's just your style to play an eccentric, hard to transport instrument like the harp that few people consider. Overall, you have the relaxed demeanor of a leisurely upper class person, and your music would reflect that. Your calm yet soulful harp playing would be sure to help people forget their troubles for a while. Your dominant personality characteristic: your zen-ness Your secondary personality characteristic: your quiet independence

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

Your Inner Retro Girl Is

1980s Goth Girl

What Retro Girl Are You?

You Are Reverse Pocky

Your attitude: rebellious and clever Non-conformist, but curiously a trendsetter With you, up is down... and it's a wild ride!

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

I would like to thank the nice cabby who allowed me to pay 19.20 instead of 20.55 just now, as I ran out off money:))).

00:07:20] the altar and the door. says:
EH i realised something
[00:07:23] the altar and the door. says:
YOU DRESS EMO CAN
[00:07:24] the altar and the door. says:
hahahahaha
[00:14:17] mirror kissers says:
WHERE GOT
[00:14:23] mirror kissers says:
i just wear jeans and tshirt CAN
[00:14:46] the altar and the door. says:
and that emo belt! hahahahaha
[00:15:06] mirror kissers says:
tts a MAT belt hahaha

[00:18:59] mirror kissers says:
eh emo etiquette
[00:19:03] mirror kissers says:
2 is what i do leh
[00:22:44] mirror kissers says:
emo etiqutte 2
[00:23:01] mirror kissers says:
hahah the one where you lk dwn
[00:23:10] the altar and the door. says:
HAHA you do meh?!
[00:23:11] mirror kissers says:
and dnt really lk at ppl when you talk
[00:23:11] the altar and the door. says:
hahahaha
[00:23:22] mirror kissers says:
haha yah i find it uncomfy to llk at smeone when i talk
[00:23:47] the altar and the door. says:
HAHAHA
[00:24:01] the altar and the door. says:
then when you walk?
[00:24:16] mirror kissers says:
i dunno tt time i tk a personality test
[00:24:22] mirror kissers says:
and they said i tend to lk on the floor
[00:24:23] mirror kissers says:
HAHAH
[00:24:49] the altar and the door. says:
hahaha
[00:24:55] mirror kissers says:
HAHAH
[00:25:04] the altar and the door. says:
actually just now i noticed you kept looking at the floor when you walk lor. hahaha
[00:25:12] the altar and the door. says:
as in when you walk to the bus stop
[00:25:14] the altar and the door. says:
hahaha
[00:34:27] the altar and the door. says:
hahahaha
[00:36:35] mirror kissers says:
Dye it black with perhaps some blond or unnatural colored streaks, especially in the bangs. If you are a girl, you may possibly want to cut your hair to a very short bob-like hairstyle but keep your bangs long, swept drastically to one side and covering your eye
[00:36:40] mirror kissers says:
OMG TT IS MY HAIR
[00:36:47] mirror kissers says:
apart from the short part
[00:36:49] mirror kissers says:
eeeeee
[00:37:49] the altar and the door. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
[00:37:56] the altar and the door. says:
I TOLD YOU YOU'RE EMO
[00:38:00] the altar and the door. says:
YOU'RE EMO EMO EMO
[00:38:02] the altar and the door. says:
HAHAHAHA
[00:38:08] mirror kissers says:
gross im gg to like get bimbo hair
[00:38:14] mirror kissers says:
hahaha do the bitch pin up fringe
[00:38:26] mirror kissers says:
but i feel insecure without hair in my eyes HAHAHA
[00:38:26] the altar and the door. says:
SURE i'd like to laugh at you when you get that
[00:38:32] the altar and the door. says:
huh serious?! hahaha
[00:38:38] mirror kissers says:
i thnk i wld lk silly
[00:38:39] the altar and the door. says:
oh man you're so cute lah hahaha
[00:38:48] the altar and the door. says:
i DARE YOU TO GO GET BIMBO HAIR
[00:38:54] mirror kissers says:
my hair always cover my eyes
[00:39:01] mirror kissers says:
hahah eeee AND DRESS BIMBO RIGHT
[00:39:03] mirror kissers says:
omgggg
[00:39:07] mirror kissers says:
hahaha
[00:39:22] the altar and the door. says:
HAHAHAHA
[00:39:25] the altar and the door. says:
DAMN FUNNY
[00:39:28] the altar and the door. says:
i cant imagine youuu
[00:39:29] the altar and the door. says:
hahahaha

[00:40:01] the altar and the door. says:
hahaha OH AND YOU LIKE WRITING YOUR THOUGHTS DOWN IN A JOURNAL
[00:40:09] the altar and the door. says:
hahaha
[00:40:13] mirror kissers says:
and i write poetry OMG
[00:40:14] mirror kissers says:
OMG
[00:40:17] mirror kissers says:
EW EW EW
[00:40:18] the altar and the door. says:
HUH SERIOUS
[00:40:20] mirror kissers says:
i dont want to be emo
[00:40:23] mirror kissers says:
grossssssss
[00:40:28] the altar and the door. says:
YOU ARE EMO LOR
[00:40:29] the altar and the door. says:
hahahaha
[00:40:34] the altar and the door. says:
so OBVIOUS
[00:40:36] the altar and the door. says:
hahahahaha
[00:40:37] the altar and the door. says:
HAHAHAHAHA
the day cheng xiaoan realised she an EMO KID
[00:41:11] the altar and the door. says:
HAHAHAHAHA
[00:41:31] the altar and the door. says:
you're like in denial!! hahaha
[00:42:01] mirror kissers says:
how! tts so like FOB
[00:42:03] mirror kissers says:
omg
[00:42:08] mirror kissers says:
how how how
[00:42:11] mirror kissers says:
i need to change
[00:42:33] mirror kissers says:
and be like miss sunshine perky i love to see the world without hair in my face

The day of horrid revelation. Thanks to this youtubevid.

TGIT!!

I predict I will have a cap of 3.0 by the end of this semester.

Had prata for supper, which is bad bad bad for the gut. I guess it's alright since it was a little gathering with qiqi who came over from taiwan for work. It's really cool that she was part of the team that designed breadtalk, toastbox and food republic.

Ughhh happy times are over. I don't want to study.

Please go to twloha, the link is on the right sidebar. It's one of the few causes I support, adn the only one pertaining to humans. I guess it's because this really hits home. This entry is very veryrandom. I'm just blogging so I can give myself an excuse for not studying.

After several weeks of procrastination, I had finally completed the moonstone! A barely bearable read at the start, as I was never the detective mysteries fan, the end was positvely riveting. And I hereby declare proudly, (WARNING MOONSTONE SPOILER!!), that godfrey did it! Oh how tricky wilkie collins was leading me to think it was Rachel, then rosanna, followed by franklin blake, when it was all good old godfrey!

You Scored an A

You got 10/10 questions correct. It's pretty obvious that you don't make basic grammatical errors. If anything, you're annoyed when people make simple mistakes on their blogs. As far as people with bad grammar go, you know they're only human. And it's humanity and its current condition that truly disturb you sometimes.

The It's Its There Their They're Quiz

You are Platform Sandals

Funky and urban You've got a cutting edge style that everyone envies A little bit downtown, a little bit euro, and whole lot of sexy!

What Kind of Sandal Are You?

Rrrrrripped chip & pepper jeans!

BOOYAH!

Auntie left for UK yesterday. It didn't really strike me that she was leaving Singapore until she checked in and ran off for her flight. All the while, it just felt like she was going somewhere which she could reach in 5 minutes, and not across the globe. Oh well. AUNTIE, PLEASE COME ONLINE OFTEN OKAY. We can have web conferences:)))). Don't forget our agreement to go visit oi in sydney next year!!

Chan chi Sonthanya kha!

Our thai teach gave us thai names today, and that's mine! It means evening(very much the opposite of my chinese name) or romantic poem:)).

It gets lonely when you have very diverse tastes, as I have realized. I don't seem to bond very well with people as I don't have much in common with them. I guess to be positive, you could call it being unique. However, in reality it just boils down to weirdness. Sometimes, I try to force myself to conform, to try to fit in. Maybe if I was more bubbly and cheery, I could make more friends. Maybe if I listen to 98.7 and love whoever is on the TRL top 20, I would find myself have more to talk about with others. Yet, each time I try to conform, my natural biological reaction creates a backlash and I delve even deeper into the diverse. I guess the only thing I can do is to get used to being lonely.

Xiaoan. What the fuck are you doing in arts?
Someone please shoot this idiot in the head.
please, as a favour to the world,
just pull the trigger,
draw the knife,
uncork the arsenic bottle,
anything. just anything.
to make this incompetent retard disappear.

I'm really tired after a day at holland v starbucks with kybear, trying to redo my essay. Bloody thesis statement. On top of that, even after I had drafted out a new essay, the perfectionist side of me just keeps gnawing at how awful it is.Back to the rawing board I guess. More photos from yest!

Our last menage a trois outing. It's sad. really.















Do you see my cool blue hair huh huh huh